The Dream of the Closed Door!

It felt like a nightmare. I was standing in front of a beautifully carved closed door, frantically trying to open it. But it was not opening. I was knocking and screaming. But nothing… I was not getting any answer.

I was stuck, obsessive and angry. Was I incapable, unworthy and a failure? Why was that closed door not opening for me? Why were others getting access to it? Why, not me?

I couldn’t explore anything else because I was stuck with this one. And it won’t open. And this was the only reason for my not moving on – because it won’t open. I had a vague idea that there was ‘That’ behind the closed door. And I wanted ‘That’ like others.

Finally, my ego couldn’t take anymore. So, I broke open the door. And enjoyed breaking the damn door. But when I broke the door, something broke in me too.

And what did I find behind the door? Nothing! A partially dark room with no outlet. It was stifling and suffocating. Those walls had imprisoned me.

Who was playing such ghastly tricks on me? I had seen a group of revelers go inside through the same door, just a while ago. I had heard blissful chanting from inside. They had all got ‘That’. But I was being denied! I felt unlucky and miserable.

Just then, I heard a voice. A shadowy character appeared in the empty room.

“What, how did this closed door open? Wow, there is nothing here!”

“I broke it open. Yes, there is nothing here for us. But I think others got access to ‘That’,” I said quietly.

“Ah, I see! This door wouldn’t open for me too so I moved on. And found ‘That’ through another door. I am glad I didn’t waste my time here. This door was never meant for me.”

“Why didn’t you come earlier? I wasted my time staying stuck and then breaking this damn door,” I cried.

“May be you were supposed to break it…”

The shadowy character disappeared and I stood there startled. “May be I was supposed to break it…!”

But how was I to go further from here? There were just four walls around me and no doors.

I had nothing to do so I started fixing the broken door. It felt good. Then I painted a bright red sign on that door using my lipstick.

If this door opens for you, it’s great! But if it doesn’t, that’s even better. Accept it and move on or you will be stuck.

It was funny. After years of struggle, anger, frustration, defeat, ego crush and emptiness I was doing some fixing job on the same door that had brought me so much misery.

Just then, I became aware of light in the room. There was a small closet towards the right wall. Light was coming through there.

With great effort, I said good bye to the now fixed door and entered the closet.

The closet opened to a corridor on the other side. There were many people and many doors. And they were all trying to open doors.

Unfortunately, everyone was busy knocking at the wrong doors. Some like me, were obsessed with the wrong door. Others were simply stuck.

But I had learnt my lesson. The only way to find ‘That’ was to move on and explore. My door was somewhere near. I felt like a little girl on a mission…

I was fearlessly liberated after a long time, open to every kind of experience in my journey towards ‘That’.

And the best thing was – I had learnt to gratefully say ‘Thank You’ to every door that was closing on me.

It was not a nightmare, rather a beautiful dream!

(Image courtesy Google)

Birthday Blog by Happy the Dog!

I am officially one year old now in dog years and seven in human years. So, yesterday was my birthday, there was cake, a little party and my neighborhood friends wished me.

It felt so weird and special! And when they sang – Happy Birthday Happy, it sounded so different. Two times ‘Happy’ huh? Also, I did a lot of mischief yesterday and was forgiven. It’s cool to be a big birthday dog!

People often remark, I look like a lion, may be because my zodiac sign is Leo. However, I am not ferocious like a lion rather friendly. All the neighborhood friends love me and bring treats for me. Due to the Covid-19 pandemic, I don’t go out much but love to bark and say hello to them from the backyard.

We have a really great neighborhood.

 

I am so tall that I have outgrown the big crate I used to sleep in. Now, I just lie down wherever I want. I still love to steal slippers and bite things when I get bored. I am also pushy and love to get attention. Border Collie dogs are like that!

You know the brothers designed a T-shirt for me (BTW the mom’s T-shirt brand has my name in it. Cool!).  They took hours to create designs on a sleeveless Tee and made me wear it. It was rather uncomfortable because it’s summer time but I accepted it since it was my birthday.

The father was busy but he took out time to pet me. The mom’s cake was great. I liked the first bite of that melt-in-mouth, fluffy cake. I heard the brothers ask the mom – Does Happy know it is his birthday?

“Of course, yes! It feels great to be the birthday dog,” I barked in reply.

The birthday is over today but my spirit remains upbeat. Hope you liked this blog by a birthday dog! Can’t wait for my next party. Meanwhile you stay safe and Happy like me! Love, Bark!

My book made it to Amazon’s Bestseller List, Thank You.

My book, The Boy Named Joy, has made it to the Amazon’s bestseller list in the U.S. and India. It is much more than what I had expected. All thanks to you dear readers! If you haven’t already, do buy the eBook for free now:(https://www.amazon.com/dp/B084DMGH8J for US and https://www.amazon.in/dp/B084DMGH8J for India.

Do read about the book here. The promotion will get over by February 5, U.S. time. The Boy Named Joy is for little kids as well as adults. It tells us how simple it is to be happy!

I am grateful that this joint effort got some recognition. I collaborated with my son to create this book that talks about the power of choice. My other family members supported it, then my small group of book launch team (Husband, sisters, brothers, family and dear friends) did there magic to bring it into the bestseller list of free books. And then there is Krishna always!

This has been my maiden effort on Amazon KDP. My  two eBooks have been sold on other platforms but not exclusively here. And I am loving it. Do download, read it and review it and it will greatly help a humble beginner like me.

Thank you my reading and blogging community for your support always. You help me create! Thank You!

Bedtime Book – The Boy Named Joy on Amazon!

Children’s bedtime book, The Boy Named Joy is now available on Amazon (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B084DMGH8J). Download your eBook copies on Amazon.com or Amazon.in (if you are in India).
Here is the preview:

About the Book: Why is King Boo-Hoo always sad although he has everything? And why is the boy named Joy always happy although he has nothing. What is the secret? The magic painting or something else… Read this endearing tale to know all about JOY!
 
The Making: The story was written quickly but the illustrations were a problem. Then, my eight-year-old, Adiraj stepped in and created the characters. He was enthusiastically encouraged by my little kindergartner, Aviraj. And after the characters were drawn on paper, I digitized the pictures and put it all together. This is how we created the book.

Message: The Boy Named Joy has a message for school children and adults as well! This Children’s eBook tells us that happiness does not really depend on cool gadgets, apps, video games or fancy clothes. That kind of happiness is momentary. True happiness comes by choosing to be happy irrespective of what we have and what we don’t have.

The eBook will help raise, good, happy kids who would learn to make wise choices in life. It is my sincere hope that this special tale will entertain as well as teach the kids to stay positive despite challenges in life just like the main character Joy.

Our kids face many challenges in life and this simple book might help.

Your feedback is extremely important and very welcome. Don’t forget to write a review on Amazon if you like it. Thanks again for being a great support!
– Shivangi