It felt like a nightmare. I was standing in front of a beautifully carved closed door, frantically trying to open it. But it was not opening. I was knocking and screaming. But nothing… I was not getting any answer.
I was stuck, obsessive and angry. Was I incapable, unworthy and a failure? Why was that closed door not opening for me? Why were others getting access to it? Why, not me?
I couldn’t explore anything else because I was stuck with this one. And it won’t open. And this was the only reason for my not moving on – because it won’t open. I had a vague idea that there was ‘That’ behind the closed door. And I wanted ‘That’ like others.
Finally, my ego couldn’t take anymore. So, I broke open the door. And enjoyed breaking the damn door. But when I broke the door, something broke in me too.
And what did I find behind the door? Nothing! A partially dark room with no outlet. It was stifling and suffocating. Those walls had imprisoned me.
Who was playing such ghastly tricks on me? I had seen a group of revelers go inside through the same door, just a while ago. I had heard blissful chanting from inside. They had all got ‘That’. But I was being denied! I felt unlucky and miserable.
Just then, I heard a voice. A shadowy character appeared in the empty room.
“What, how did this closed door open? Wow, there is nothing here!”
“I broke it open. Yes, there is nothing here for us. But I think others got access to ‘That’,” I said quietly.
“Ah, I see! This door wouldn’t open for me too so I moved on. And found ‘That’ through another door. I am glad I didn’t waste my time here. This door was never meant for me.”
“Why didn’t you come earlier? I wasted my time staying stuck and then breaking this damn door,” I cried.
“May be you were supposed to break it…”
The shadowy character disappeared and I stood there startled. “May be I was supposed to break it…!”
But how was I to go further from here? There were just four walls around me and no doors.
I had nothing to do so I started fixing the broken door. It felt good. Then I painted a bright red sign on that door using my lipstick.
If this door opens for you, it’s great! But if it doesn’t, that’s even better. Accept it and move on or you will be stuck.
It was funny. After years of struggle, anger, frustration, defeat, ego crush and emptiness I was doing some fixing job on the same door that had brought me so much misery.
Just then, I became aware of light in the room. There was a small closet towards the right wall. Light was coming through there.
With great effort, I said good bye to the now fixed door and entered the closet.
The closet opened to a corridor on the other side. There were many people and many doors. And they were all trying to open doors.
Unfortunately, everyone was busy knocking at the wrong doors. Some like me, were obsessed with the wrong door. Others were simply stuck.
But I had learnt my lesson. The only way to find ‘That’ was to move on and explore. My door was somewhere near. I felt like a little girl on a mission…
I was fearlessly liberated after a long time, open to every kind of experience in my journey towards ‘That’.
And the best thing was – I had learnt to gratefully say ‘Thank You’ to every door that was closing on me.
It was not a nightmare, rather a beautiful dream!
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Beautiful
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Thank you dear😀🤗
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If one door closes, there’s definitely another one that would open. ☺️
Nice post Shivangi.
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Thank you Savitha for reading and appreciating 😀💐
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My pleasure and wishing you A Happy Independence Day . ☺️
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Happy Independence Day dear! Jai Hind!
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Intriguing.
Harivash Rai Bachchan said once ” Mun ka ho to achcha, Na ho to aur bhi achcha”
Means – if it doesn’t happen as per our wish then we should accept that. There may be a devine intervention which means something better is stored for you later.
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Perfectly said! I know this quote and it is one of my favorites. Thanks a lot for reading😀🙏🏻
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I agree that everything happens for a reason.
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True Manoj! You said it nicely. Thank you for reading!
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Hey that’s a great perspective. Maybe it’s destiny’s way of pushing us on to the right path
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You got it perfectly right! Thank you for reading😀
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My pleasure 😊
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Happy Independence Day! Jai Hind!
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A lovely story with a life message 🙂
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Thank you Ali for reading and appreciating 😀
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Wow!
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Its truly awesome!
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I am glad you liked it😀
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I truly love all your stories! Amazing work
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Thank you so much for your lovely words😀💐
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You deserve it mam!
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😀💐
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Hey! As you know I literally like your work by heart so can I nominate you to the Ideal Inspirational Blogger award?
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Sure Kunakshi. I am really grateful for considering me. 😀💐. I do not usually write a continuation post to the awards but I feel so grateful to be appreciated🤗👍
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Well I have nominated you and it would be very kind of you if you make the post related to it!
Will hope and a little please too….
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Thank you Kunakshi. I will do my best😀
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Do see my post and check out the questions you need to answer!
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Sure Kunakshi. Thanks
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🤗
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A lovely story, Shivangi, with an important message for all of us. That door is fabulous, too. 😀
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I am so glad you liked it Millie. Thanks a lot😀
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Thank you for this wonderful story!
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Sometimes it is the nightmare which is in fact beautiful! Sometimes maybe that is how it goes, no?
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